I have been grieving for my writing career.

I last posted on here over a year ago to announce the closure of my publisher. It had been a slow, expected death – my last royalty payent was in early 2019, right after the new owners took over. I thought I was just disappointed and that I would move on.

But I found that I couldn’t. I was just starting a new intense day job, so my writing time was limited. My old books languished on my hard drive, unavailable to buy – except for the paperbacks and audiobook, for which the money goes to the now-dissolved publisher.

I wrote the first draft of the first Amy Lane book in November 2011 and, after eight years and four sequels, I had nothing to show for it.

Then 2020 happened – and I was a pregnant doctor during a global pandemic. The two weeks of leave I had planned to spend with my new book turned into childcare. I felt more and more disconnected from myself as a writer.

All my friends who had started the publishing journey with me went from strength to strength. I did my best to cheer for them, to support their new books and awards – but it was easier to create distance rather than acknowledge my hurt and my jealousy.

In July 2020, I managed to edit and upload ebook versions of the first four books in The Amy Lane Mysteries. And I was paid for my writing for the first time in eighteen months.

Slowly – excruciatingly slowly – I began to write again. A TV pitch document, a few thousand words of my novel, and now a science fiction short story that has excited my muse for the first time in months.

It is a new year and a time for new beginnings. I hope to share something new with you all soon.

Rosie and her infant daughter

2 Comments

  • Congratulations! And what a warming post. Plans here get regularly thrown off-piste- you’re not alone and how great to learn you can’t switch it off! Great to hear you again!

  • Caroline

    Hi Rosie! Just saying hi, really, as I can’t see how else to sign up for new posts. I think we met briefly at Crickhowell – I’m Philip Gwynne Jones’ wife. Congrats on the new(ish) baby and surviving this weird time; and it’s good to hear you have been able to get back in the writing saddle. Also, thanks for your work as a doctor and I hope it’s not too tough.

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